holy lord of all that is good and holy... i am not happy. Wow, i feel like i'm gonna puke. I hate this crap i should never have looked through my old journal today... i feel like i took a time warp to a year ago. holy wow this sucks. anyway, i just got a hug from an 8 year old which was surprisingly very rewarding. So i'm hoping to god that i can just stop thinking all together... i'm in too bad and pissy of a mood even to write about it. I just want it to go away... so i'm gonna end this at that.