ahhhhhhhhhhhh.... back in Florida! my family moved to a new apartment and it's pretty nice. It doesn't really matter to me, cause nowhere in Florida really feels like home except for Orange Park. Gosh, i have so much to say, i don't even know where to start... first off, i don't think i'm going to go to korea after all... I just had such a horrible experience this summer, that i'm just not sure about the whole thing. Not only that, but i'm kinda getting my life back on track (after the worst year ever) and i just kinda want to be a normal person again, doing normal things, like going to the movies with friends and stuff. After the first few days back in boise, i really just felt like i was finally home again. it was like a huge stress was lifted from me... and i'd rather not go back to that stressful environment again. I also feel like this next year is going to be amazing. I can just tell. it's like a new start. I don't know why someone would do such horrible things to someone as the things that happened to me last year, but i think i'm finally able to move on. I really feel like i'm back to my old sweet self again. Which is good, cause i went a little crazy for a while there. I was just so lost and in such a dark place... but now i think i'm back in the light. It's about time. I told you guys that my birthday was amazing... and it was. First of all, right after i got back some pretty sad things happened. I was staying with jessie's family and her grandpa died, so all of her family was upset and high strung which i felt horrible for..because i know how crazy that can be. And then Jessie was working two jobs and they were overlapping, and Ryan her boss at the soccer place was getting frusterated about it. And she was getting equally frustrated with him because he waited until the last minute to tell her when she had to work, which probably made her scheduling issues even tougher for her. Anyway, so i ended up doing some of jessie's scorekeeping for her... which turned out to be kinda fun... at least when the cute boys were playing. ;) So that's how that got started... so then when her grandpa died i covered her next couple of shifts, and one of them was the night before my birthday (she was a little late). anyway, ryan "the boss" asked me if i wanted to go out for a birthday drink after work cause it would technically be the next day by then. Well... normally i may be weirded out cause i would think that he liked me, but in this case, i had been telling him for two days all about how i liked this guy and i wanted to find out if he had a gf and stuff, so i didn't think he would think it was a date or anything. Now ryan CAN be kinda creepy at times, but in this case i decided his intetions were friendly and innocent so i said sure. It turned out to be pretty cool... except that he managed to get the name of the boy i like out of me... oh geez... here we go again. haha. anyway, but it was cool. So then the next day was my real birthday day... jessie woke me up with a hot plate of fresh chocolate chip pancakes... mmmm mmm mmm! what a great start! that evening i had to work at the soccer place again from 6:30 to 9 so after a long, much appreciate talk with alfie, i score kept for a few hours, and then off to dinner at old chicago with friends. Now, the boy i like didn't show up to the indoor soccer arena... :( so i was a little disappointed... cause that would have been the highlight to my birthday. but it was "all good" cause i was gonna have a nice night with close friends, so how could i complain. So melissa and i were the first there... then margit and casto... then there was a wait. And while i opened my present from casto and margit and sat around and chatted and laughed... a beautiful creature caught my eye outside. It was the boy i like!!!!!!!! no way! i only saw him for a split second as he walked past the window... and i couldn't move! i was so bummed cause he was so close yet soooo far away!!! and then... jessie walked in! Jessie had run into him outside on her way in and INVITED HIM IN!!!!!!!!! so he came in and wished me a happy birthday and it turned out that his birthday was only a few days earlier (he had turned 21... perfect! :) haha) and he's not only a virgo... BUT HE'S A VIR...somethin else!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!!!!!!!! that's amazing!!! (ryan told me that little tidbit) anyway, he stuck around for about 5 minutes "shooting the breeze". and then he left cause he and his friends were supposed to meet some other people for dinner somewhere else. So more of my friends arrived and we all hung out and laughed and had fun... i called "assclown" and invited him, cause melissa really wanted to see what he looked like. So then we're all hanging out, assclown hadn't gotten there yet, and then... HE CAME BACK!!!!! the boy i like came back!!! :) oh man, best birthday ever! so then jessie and margit and casto all had to go to albertson's to get bandades for margit... i didn't know why, but i forgot to think about it cause the boy i like was taking all of my attention. then assclown got there...and that was a little bit awkward cause i wasnt' expecting the boy that i like to come back over when i invited assclown... so it was a little wierd. But oh well. So anyway, there i was... now just left with ryan, the boy i like, his brother, and two of his friends, and assclown and his friend. fyi, they are all pretty handsome boys. me... surrounded by 7 gorgeous men... ahhh... it was great. Then jessie and casto and margit got back and DUH! they brought me a birthday cake! so i got to make a wish! Birthday wishes ALWAYS come true, and i've been waiting a whole year to get this birthday cake so i could make my wish come true... and i didn't wish for it!!!! i've been waiting all year long just to make this one wish, but when my chance came, i didn't want it anymore! ayayay... haha, i'm a weirdo. oh well. Anyway, i DID make a good wish though. It's wierd cause all day i'd even been planning the wording on how i would make my wish exactly... word for word... and then.. poof! i didn't make it! it's funny how things work out sometimes. anyway, so after that i went to ryan's house with jessie, assclown and his friend who didn't speak any english. He could understand english but couldnt' speak it well, and i could understand spanish but can't speak it well... so we talked for like an hour and he spoke in spanish and i responded in english and then he responded in spanish.. haha. it was cool. Then assclown asked me to be his girlfriend... yadda yadda.. and then we went home (jessie and i) and went to sleep. (i avoided the question if you're wondering) anyway, that was friday. So saturday we went downtown... and i got hit on like thirty times and was told by the hot dog vendor and his friend that i had the best belly button in boise. haha. um... okay. then i went to felipe's house to meet up with casto, margit, saud (dunno how to spell that), antonio, and mony, and the mysterious new french guy "B"... p.s. i can't stand felipe. he's such a douche. anyway, then mony and I took saud home, and hung out with ali and fellow saudi's and drank tea on the porch wrapped up in furwa's haha (dunno how to spell that either... obviously) they are like big fur coat type thingies. anyway, then mony and i went back to felipe's place where he grabbed my ass and i hit him in the face, yadda yadda yadda... and then i drove home. Sunday, went to church with jessie in the morning. then went to the storage unit then to calvary at night. Here is my other, and final story for the night. And this one is freakin annoying and rediculous! so i usually like sitting in church by myself.. esp. at calvary. (mostly just so i can sing out loud and not be embarrassed). so i'm sitting there at the COLLEGE group, and some guy comes up and asks if the seat next to me is taken... so i say no. then he procedes to sit next to me and talk to me the ENTIRE TIME!! and not just talk, he's like "so, where are you from, what brings you here tonight?? blah blah blah" so i thought to myself that i was a conceded jerk, cause here this guy is probably just trying to be friendly and make a friend and i shouldn't just think that just because someone talks to me means they like my and stuff. So i was kinda feeling guilty that i was so annoyed by it... cause i automatically just assumed that he wanted me. so i was trying to be nice and all. but i was so skeptical cause i had just gotten hit on like thirty times the night before, so i was kinda thinking that he was doing the same thing... but we were at CHURCH! who does that??? (one girl the night before told me the guy friend she was with had a crush on me and he hadn't had a girlfriend in 5 years... um... okay... sweet. I'm pretty sure that's how she worded it.. man, what a turn on.) anyway... so i'm trying not to be a conceded beyatch.. and be nice. and then when i'm leaving he is literally following me like a puppy dog trying to talk to me more. I told him i was sorry but i really had to get going cause i had to pack to go to florida the next day and he was all... well can i get your email address? i was like... um... (the end... that's all i said, um.) so i broke the silence by saying, well i'm sure i'll see you here when i get back... he was patting his pockets like a madman trying to find a pen.. and finally he gave up and said "oh shucks, it's just my luck.. i don't have a pen on me..." he was thinking of some other solution... i said, "me neither... well it was nice meeting you.." haha... and i peaced out... can you believe that junk??? oh man. incredible. increible. incredoble (that's german... haha, no it's not. i just made that up.) :-P anyway, so that's that. Then i ate with casto and margit and watched casto and new french boy play tennis... (blugh) and then i decided to call him "B" as in plan b. i think you can figure out what that means. Casto said i should just go for him anyway, but no way, i'm not doing anything to mess up plan a... that boy is freakin incredible! anyway, i'm pooped. that reminds me of emily's cousin.. but i'll have to save that story for next time. love ya! (kiss, kiss)